The Past Has Already Gone

....yet why some of us still contemplating about it?

When some of us got back something that related to the past, something that remind us of the moment that we're so happy, should we really hang onto it?

If everything has changed since then, why bother to hang onto it?

We can't just got back to something in the past just because it's good, it makes you comfortable,... it's familiar...

"we were just happened to be classmates for 12 years..."

"we were just happened to share the dormitory for 4 years"

"we were never together..."

"we were never friends..."

though I have to admit I never see this could happen...yet it is happening...

For that, all I could say... that I wish all the happiness in the world for you and her.

I hope you and him will stay together forever... from here to the hereafter...



Over my shoulder, I saw nothingness crawling behind my back...

A silhouette of a girl dressed in beige with the sound of her heels clicking on the pavement, slowly disappearing into the light of...

My Big Brother's Engagement Party

Song that I'm listening to right now: Marry You and Just the Way You Are (Glee Cast Version) ... 

Okay... Where do I begin? I went back last Tuesday and all the way to Friday were the days of making preparations i.e. The clothes to wear on Saturday, for me and ALL the bridesmaids, the house, the dining utensils, the FOOD, the people, and of course, the highlight of the event is the 7 trays of trousseaus... In our Bajau tradition, the groom also give stuffs to the bride, okay... 

Later I'm going to explain our tradition that we chose to follow this time that usually being implemented especially to the very first child of the family and plus my brother is also the grandson of the family, therefore it's given that we have to spend a lil bit more than the usually being spent on wedding..

But as for the engagement party, we didn't spend so much though. We had catering took care the food for Saturday morning and a cousin of mine took care the barbecue on Saturday night.

On Saturday, us, from the groom-to-be's side went to the bride-to-be's house which is located on the next village to ours...FYI, groom-to-be is NOT allowed to come during engagement party in the bride-to-be house...

Anyway, from morning to around 2 p.m. was the feast event. Mum took care like most of dad's siblings' wedding so it's given all of them came for bro's engagement. It's actually a very rare occasion to see all 8 (out of 9) of them together at family events.

Around 2, lead by our village leader, who has a fine name but unfortunately being nicknamed by abang and his friends as Deka. He was actually had to be sent to the hospital in the morning because of asthma attack but he refused to miss the event so he came with Dad anyway~ We were so touched because of that. 

These are the 7 trays of trousseaus... I made all of them myself and a cousin helped me until 3 in the morning on that Friday...

Some fruits... 

Shoes and make-ups... I had to re-wrap the small-sized box with white paper and later with a silver wrap... but still, it's worth the view...

A handbag... 

and a perfume at the back... 

A silk from mum...

Telekung and sejadah... love the small butterfly~

Of course, an engagement cake... and last but not least... the Sirih Junjung, and the ring... Abang bought the ring bed and Mum made the sirih junjung... The green leaves are what we called as sirih and are eaten by some of the elders to drop their blood pressure... But it's a symbol of.. I'm not really sure exactly but it's important in our tradition in fact, it heads these trousseaus... 

... at the bride-to-be house, I literally scattered the RM15k bills around the ring... Kidding! I rolled the RM100 bills in 10 and tied a ribbon around it... 

... Presenting the bridesmaids...! We all are cousins.. This was before we head towards the bride-to-be house... 

...and of course, the best man. My lil bro, Arif right in the middle of us girls.. 

From left, Jila (daughter of papa's lil sis), Nana (daughter of papa's lil bro - Unc. Muss), Ain daughter of Mum's lil bro) and our lil Yaya (daughter of papa's lil bro - Unc. Arshad)... She is such a doll! Her 21 yrs old sis, Afizah didn't come as she's currently attending UNIMAS. Me? hehe.. I skipped 2 classes for this!  

Nana and Jila... 

This is Kak Ida... after mum put the ring on her.. 

Mustafa Kamal and Noor Hamidah are officially engaged!

During the discussion of the wedding~

Hence, it's official, people! The majlis nikah is going to be on 20th of January, majlis berinai on 21st, and the majlis bersanding is on 22nd. Pre-wedding party on 19th - the bride-to-be's birthday and post-wedding party plus the majlis potong kek on the 23rd, also the groom-to-be's birthday... Yeah.. nice coincidences, right? 

Anyway, these are the dowries from kak ida to my brother...  9 trays... 

Baju nikah... same with the best man's just now... 

Sejadah and songkok... 

Belt and wallet... 

Black leather shoes...

watch and a perfume...

Adidas perfume set... 

basket of fruits... 

na'ah! THESE ARE MINE!!! :D

talking about coincidences... both side of family actually ordered our cakes from the same bakery.... so sweet...

When we're done with the serious matter, we off to the dining area and had late lunch.. but before that, I took some pictures with Kak Ida... 

That's Mum with Kak Ida.. and that's Unc. Muss's wife.. Aunt. Liza with our newest lil cousin, the heartthrob, baby Danish! 

Another picture with Kak Ida... 

After that, the bridesmaids were taking over the stage! LOL

the girl in blue is Jila's lil sis, Mimi.. she's 16. there's another lil sister, but she didn't came with us.. 

Got home around 4 p.m. I think, and after I sat at the couch like 5 minutes, I blacked out. I woke up around 7 p.m., and prepared some fried noodles for the barbecue plak... we also had karaoke! We finished around 1 in the morning, cleaned up, and woke up around 8 the next morning. 

So.. that's ALL about the engagement party... PHEW! that was a lot!

I flew back to KL today and arrived at exact 12 midnight at the campus! =)

Have a good night, people!

xoxo,

V

Header.. Oh header...

Thinking of changing the header...

Same theme but different colour... Will do after I'm done with the mid term!

Fell Apart? Maybe

The thing is, my best friends, Shahida, Samirah and Abeer just went back to IIUM Kuantan campus after crashing in my cube for the past 3 days. It was crazy. Really.

On Thursday, they arrived around 5 p.m. while I was tutoring some of Mathematics classmates on functions.

As I hurried back to Mahallah, parked Jeremy just outside my windows, I ran to my room and saw Sammy stood there in front of the door. I hugged her together with Abeer. I miss them so much!

I went inside and found Sha was sleeping - exhausted from the long journey I guess. But I don't care. I rocked the bed and woke her up. lol

We just spent the whole evening chatting, laughing, eating bunch of crap and around 8.30 we went to the Experimental Hall located at the Rectory building to attend a Talk by Prof. Muhammed Elfaki on Islam & Feminism, organized by WAFA.

We headed back to mahallah and ordered McDonald on the way. At my room we continued on chatting some more, catching up with a LOT of things. I got to hear some stuffs went down in the Kuantan campus lately and bunch of crazy stories. We slept at almost 4 in the morning I think!

The next day on Friday, me, Sha, Sammy and my roommate Kadia Spent half of the day at Times Square KL. We did window shopping after went for a movie - Fright Night at the third level. We went back to campus around 9 after a bad scene at Papa John. But overall, it was fun. Simple things like walking with my friends are just priceless.

...and today, or I should say yesterday (look at the time!), we all went to Nabil Abas & Kak Najwa's wedding. Nabil was the vice president of SCIENCESS 09/10. Isn't it a nice coincidence for the vice president got married after the president? =)

I got to see some people at the wedding i.e. Kak Nadia Hanis who was just awesome! I miss our days back in the SCIENCESS Operation Room. We got to take picture with the groom and the bride and only that moment I suddenly recalled a vague memory of where I actually first met Kak Najwa. She was the committee of my Taaruf week at Matriculation back in 2006 and the week after that, I was on my way to Abu Bakar College for my English class. I was lost in between Al Malik Faisal Hall and the library and there Kak Najwa, asking me if I was lost. Even she was puzzled at first when I asked her where's the ABC 003 class as it was the first time classes were held in the brother's mahallah. But she did directed me to the right venue though. I smiled while walking out of the hall. Thinking on how they are so perfect for each other, knowing Nabil is such a nice guy too.

We took a cab to Alpha Angle mall a.k.a JJ Wangsa Maju as Sha still want to try Papa John no matter what. So we had a pizza, breadsticks, cheese sticks, and baked rice. Sha and Kadia had the bite of their lives when they both bit the pickled chilies. We also looked back at the pictures we took for the past 3 days and I suddenly recalled the Olive Theory when Sammy mentioned that she don't like the olives.

When we went out of the mall, it was raining. KL these days. The weather was quite unpredictable. The rain got heavier when we were in the cab. We arrived in the campus around 4 and the quickly packed and my chest started to get heavy as I watched them.

We all hugged and as I bid them goodbye while they were walking down the hill towards the entrance gate, I felt my tears rolled down on my cheeks. I felt so sad but I know I'm going to see them again.

Here I am, sitting in my room. Looking at the pictures that I took again and again. I know I eventually will find new friends here in Gombak but I can't deny the fact that I'll always long for them to be here with me. But this is the reality as we walked different paths in our lives.


P.S.: currently listening the Glee version of 'Somewhere Only We Know' sung by Blaine Anderson of the Warblers.

Somewhere Only We Know

Artist: Keane



I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

...and Maaf Zahir & Batin... to all my friends and family out there...

Raya preparation this year isn't that much as my parents spent most on renovations in the house... But, for the first time since I was in secondary school, Mom made me 4 baju kurung!!! Hoho

My big brother came home on the 3rd day of Eid and we all we went to Sandakan on the 4th day. Kinda rush but we managed to come back today...

Another week left before we all are going to start our new semester!

To all my friends who are going to enter their fourth year also their FINAL year, hence Final Year Projects, I wish all the best and as for me, this upcoming semester is going to be real challenge as I'm going to take my Graphic Communications and Introduction to Built Environment subjects...


That's all for now,

Signing out!
-Moon

Ramadhan...

In the month of Ramadhan, there are not much I can do other than preparing the house for Eid, baking some cookies, and of course, go to the office once a while...

Few more days left before we're done with this month and I'm sure all people out there are busy too...

Just want to say remember to budget your expenses for this upcoming Eid as we all going to need spent a lot more when we hit the next semester...

Me and Mom just bought few bags of baju kurung fabrics... and I haven't decide which one to choose for Eid this year... Mom already bought Baju Melayu for my brothers (gold) and I'm pretty sure that my big bro is going to kill my lil bro for choosing the colour at some point later...

Anyway, let's hope that we all got bless from Allah...


Signing out!

In a Blink!

Wow! When I woke up this morning, I realize that today's is the last day of this semester.

... and I went through my last paper this morning and with that I'm officially done with the semester!

The result will be announced on 22nd of July and let's all pray hard that we got the best for our papers!

I'm expecting (more like my parents actually) good result for this semester and all I can say that I did my best and now, all we do is just pray...

Anyway, for you guys who're gonna be done with internships, how was it? Mostly you guys are busy with reports and log books and every other things, right?

I wish you guys all the best and just wanna wish you guys good luck for the upcoming final year!


Regards,

As Always...

There are things in life that we can never forget. Even though we tried so hard by distracting ourselves with so many things to do and attend to, we still ended up remembering that certain things... Certain days...

Thought it won't take long to forget.. but then... it's been... 6? 7 years I think...

Anyway, just wanna wish to that person...

Happy 24th birthday and may Allah be with you no matter where you are...


Regards,

Jeremy Is Here!

Jeremy Is Here!
After waiting for 2 weeks before he can be transferred and another 5 days cause he was stuck here and there, he's finally here! When I saw him after 5 months, I thought I can just be cool when we finally met. But I just can't help myself. I kiss him. People were looking but I don't really care. I just smiled happily.

I took my keys out and just ride him right away. I felt a little bit uneasy at first but I think I'll do just fine. The ride back to campus was easy. Though I actually googled the fastest directions from there to here, but when I finally on road with him, I just felt it in me. As if I've been here since forever. I looked at the sign boards from time to time and when I got into the campus, I was smiling again. To be honest, even though this is just simple and effortless, I could see the glimpse of freedom everywhere I go. I like this feeling. As if everything that burdens me just been lifted off my shoulders.

As if I could go on like this forever.

I don't have to worry about walking around the campus anymore.

Because he's here. Jeremy is here.

People ask me a lot why don't I get myself a car instead. Well, it's not that my family can't afford it for me but it's not just the time yet. When the time come for me to get a car, I want it to be a special moment and If I could I want to pay using my own money. But for now, I'm with him.

Jeremy represents a lot in me. The me in here. A student in a university. He just fits me in everything. In a way he is a part of me.

Been thinking a lot of what I'm gonna do with him. I'm gonna go around and check out places around the campus area. See if there's a place that I could use as a place to hang out with him.

Hope he's fine out there. Too tired to walk myself from the roofed-parking lot to my room so I leave him right outside my block.

Sleep, well! =D I'll see you in the morning.

Looking at the Stats...

I started this blog like end of 2008... marking the beginning of my life as a Biomedical Science student back in IIUM Kuantan campus..

Though I have this strong urge to close down this blog, I still think I want to keep it as I have a lot of memories I wrote down in this blog...

Not that I'm calling this as my diary but still...

While I was looking at the stats though the page views barely pass 1k I still grateful for those who spent some time reading this blog.. though you'll find this blog less informative and more on random stuffs... cause some of you guys already know, I post stuffs regarding the academic material in my other blog - A Journey Never Ends so this blog is more like a place for me to tell stories in my life for the past 2 years and a half...

Anyway, for those from IIUM, I think you're already know that we gonna spend 2 full months of Ramadhan and 'Eid at home, right? I think this is gonna be the most memorable vacation I ever had in my life cause for the first time since 2006, on top with Ramadhan and 'Eid, I'm gonna celebrate my birthday at home!!!

Yep! It's gonna be a one hell of a birthday party!

haha.. just kidding.. probably gonna invite close relatives and some friends to come by at my house and have a little barbecue...

It's almost prayer time, so.. I guess I see yo guys in next entry..

Take care,

Moon

It's Been A While...

It's the fourth week since I'm in Gombak and it's the end of the second week in the academic calendar...

to all my friends who are in the middle of their internships, I wish all the best to all of you...

Well, for this semester, I only do 2 subjects... Computer and Mathematics...

Since I already done these subjects back in CFS, I think I handle them quite well... There are lots of things I didn't understand and felt they don't make any sense, but now I think I do understand them clearly... Maybe it's quite difficult to see the bigger picture back then but now.. Yeah.. It's okay I guess...

All in all, the classes are fun... with classmates are all from different countries... It's great to experience new culture...

...and of course.. now I understand the feeling of being minority in my class... the language spoken mostly is Arabic... wow... It's really the other way around comparing the time I was in Kuantan...

Still, let's just hope for the best for all of us...

Insya Allah...

In Gombak Again...

The last 5 days were AWESOME!!!

Last Friday, I woke up in the morning and started to pack my things up. I don't know why. Took a cab to LRT Putra station and went to KL Sentral and took another cab to Pekeliling. I bought a ticket to Kuantan. I was listening to mu iPod along the way only to realize when I sat at the bench nearby the ticket counter, an old lady asked me where I was heading to. During that moment, I was thinking hard. Where am I heading to?

Kuantan. I answered. Only then I realized that I was actually going to Kuantan. It doesn't make sense right? What I'm saying is, I unknowingly made myself went to Kuantan. As if it's a place that I can go to without wondering - not even a second, what to do next in order to reach that place.

Like home. Like how I can predict of what's gonna happen every time I'm on trip to home.

Though I stated that I have no reason to stay at Kuantan anymore, now I realize I still have reason to go there...

Went to the mahallah and met up all my beloved friends, replenishing my supply of crazy stories among them, saw few of my classmates in the cafe, exchanged stories and confirmed whatever they heard about me, it felt good.

Since they're in the middle of exams right now, we just ate, sleep, and talked inside the room. I went to KOS for the first time after few months and all I could see were the memories at every corner of the building.

The lecture theaters and classrooms - where I used to have my lectures, WacKOS, where I used to hang out with my friends, the sister's musolla - where I used to pray and sleep in between my lectures, and the Operation Room - where I used to fulfill my duty as the SCIENCESS Special Task's committee for two semesters in a row... and of course the long walk from KOS towards mahallah after my friends done with their revisions...

I missed being here.

Well, so much for the memories!

As I took the bus back to KL, I looked back and waved at my friends who sent me to the terminal. While on the bus, I was thinking...

Is this some kind of a closure? A sign telling me to finally move on with my life?

I think so.

But one thing that I'm pretty sure, that I still have my friends staying in Kuantan. These are the people who are giving me plenty of reasons to come to Kuantan once in a while.

Yeah. I guess so.

Good night, everybody!

and now, let's begin...

okay, peeps! finally after waiting for 2 whole weeks, the result of my application to IIUM's Kulliyyah of Architecture and Environmental Design has been announced!

and the result is... drumroll, please....

I'm in!!!!!

Thought I won't be able to make it as it's been 2 weeks already... But totally wrong on that... =)

Now I realize that the nearly 2 hours interview is totally worth it...

So, hereby I announce, my new journey has begin...

Damage!

On Monday, while I was reading some books in the library, I received a call from a private number. Filled with curious, I picked up.

"Is this Nuraini Munira Jalir?"

"As the lawyer of D****** V***** R********, I would like to inform you that this company is going to sue you with RM 10 000..."

I was about to collapse upon hearing that...

"For further explanation, please call this number.."

I called the number 2 seconds after I hung up the first call.

Turns out same voice, same slang, answered my call. Then he explained about this privilege card that I agreed to sign up on October 2010 in East Coast Mall, Kuantan.

It is a privilege card that can give you discount if you flash that card while buying plane tickets from AirAsia and if you reserve at some hotels in Malaysia. The original price is RM 999 but there giving out some special promotion - RM 350 for students. I agreed to pay RM 60 for deposit, it's not I'm going to get the privilege card right away, it's a deposit that will be burned if I don't wish to proceed with the whole thing by settling the fee of RM350.

It is true that I agreed - filled a form and whatsoever, but one thing I remembered what the agent said is they don't accept any payment within 12 months, they'll send some sort of notice - letter to remind me about the whole deal.

But what the guy had told me on the phone was totally different from what I heard from before.

That if they don't accept any payment within 12 months, they have rights to sue me, with RM 10 000!

My banks accounts - Maybank, and CIMB had been suspended and I may not eligible to apply for any scholarship after this.

A letter will be sent to my current address saying that I have to be in court next week for the proceedings... WHAT???

Even the lawyer mentioned earlier that maybe it's the agent before this had some problems in explaining the whole deal to me... WHAT???

I can't think straight after that... Maybe it's my fault that I didn't read the whole agreement before signing up but how come these agents can be so stupid in explaining things?

Then the guy said if I don't want to be sued, I should pay the whole package - RM 999 plus I have to bear half of the lawyer fee of RM 350 to revoke the whole thing by 3 p.m. that day.

Is this some kind of fraud? That's what I've been thinking.

I called my parents after that and asked for their advices. My brother agreed to take care of the whole thing once he got here in KL. He called the guy earlier and had some sort of agreement to settle things which I still don't know about. But the guy agreed by settling things up by being paid with RM 300 ++. WHAT THE???

Feeling lost and unable to use my mind for awhile, my mum asked me to trust her on this that she believes that as long as I don't use other's people money, I don't cheat other people's money, there's no way I can be sued easily.

So, in conclusion, all I want to say is before you guys sign anything, do read the whole agreement!

I have so many things going on for the past 3 months already. But with this thing, I'm almost lost my senses and only today I guess, I'm back to my normal self again and be able to think straight.

I'm not saying the whole thing is settled already, but for now I think I can sleep without thinking so much about this whole crazy-stupid-ridiculous thing.

What a damage! Tsunami in Japan with 9.0 Richter's scale is devastating but this tsunami I had... a total damage to my perspective upon strangers at the shopping malls.

Just For A While

While I was surfing the internet, trying to get some ideas for my aunt's company profile cover, suddenly I remembered that it's been a while since I last post something in here...

and therefore.. not only updating it, I happened to change its layout... So, voalla!

Just want to experiment with bright colours... I kinda like the back ground... I definitely love abstracts... It's full of wild and freedom...

well, not only that... here I want to say something about... social skills...

In life, we meet new people almost every day... For me, as I already assumed myself involved in family business in civil and electrical construction, it's natural for me to meet new people every day - of course they are all older than me... therefore, it's a great experience to learn from them... Social skills are different among people and there I can see though some of them come from rural areas, their social skills are good compare to some city people who don't even know how to respect other people..

In order to gain respect from other people, we have to respect them first.. In order to be a good leader among your workers, you yourself have to show professionalism and able to take other's critics... and of course there are lots of other things you need to have in order to be a good leader...

but of course, in this line of business also, we face problems and obstacles.. but nothing frustrates us more than betrayal among our own comrades or in this case, business partner...

yesterday, a friend of my dad came to our office and talked to my dad about his friend - a long time friend, who supposed to help him in order to get a 29 mil project by lending him his licenses - and of course, will get at least 1 mil for that, had retracted his licenses and agreed to give another party his licenses for 2 mil.. though the whole process of getting the tender already done with more than 50%, and lots of money already invested just to get chance to compete for the tender, not to mention his time and efforts... and of course the preparation that needed to be carried out in order to make sure his company has no problem in handling the project - enough funding and various other things needed to be done...

But now, everything went down the drain... his time, efforts, and money had wasted already... Without doubt, that man is not trustworthy at all.. but then my dad's friend had said something that I find quite surprising..

"Yes, I lost some money, and maybe, just maybe he could win the tender and get 1 or 2 mil.. But now he's on his own.. He lost me, he lost all of us..."

Well, during that moment, I realized that this man who's sitting in front of dad is a great person... Not only admitting what goes around comes around, but also he knows everything will happen according to what had already been destined by no one else but God... So I pray to God to give him strength to cope with the whole situation and give him rezeki in near future... As long he's sincere in doing his jobs, for the sake of Allah, and for the benefits of people that he loves and cares about...

Business is full of risks... But for me, as long as you're going into the right path, Allah will always give the best and if mishaps are brought upon you, you always have to be patient and ask Him for guidance and strength...

All in all, there are lots of things I need to learn in life... Wise in choosing your friend, and always believe in your own strength are what my parents told me..

So, cheer up, people... If you think you're down, and lost... Ask Allah for guidance...

Insya Allah... You'll find your way...

This Isn't Goodbye...

Well, though this is kinda surprising to some people but I finally have mustered enough courage to tell you guys what had happened to me recently...

Things happen for reason and I think I just have to live up with that...

A lot of things had happened since I've been admitted into IIUM Kuantan campus and to be honest, I've been trying so hard not to run away from Biomedical Science... Not only trying to cope with the course itself - everybody knows this isn't an easy course though it's not as tough as Medicine, I also had struggled to cope with the environment...

Therefore, long story short, I'm actually 'enjoying' a study leave right now, well.. Not a vacation obviously! I'm doing some preparation to go through the interview by the end of February or early March.. Oh, I didn't mention that I'm changing program, right?

Well, after all things considered, I applied the change of program to our own KAED in Gombak campus... so even after this leave, I won't be able to come back to Kuantan...

All in all, I would like to thank all the people that had helped me throughout my days in Kuantan especially to all Class of 2012, Batch 081/082 and 091... I sincerely want to thank you guys for giving me so many memories... I'm sorry I just can't go on with you guys anymore... It's not that I don't want to but I can't...

Therefore, I would like to wish all the best to all of you and hopefully we all going to succeed in no matter what we want to pursue in the future... I hope our paths will cross again in the future so we can meet again, talk over a cup of coffee somewhere, and laugh about all those happy moments we had together...

As I strongly believe that hard work will definitely be rewarded and together with sincerity, we could have all the things that we want to have in our life... be it a wealthy life, healthy environment, useful sources, or anything that can benefit us and people that we care about...

All in all, I hope this isn't goodbye...

Regards,

Nuraini Munira Jalir